I’m about a week out from stepping on stage again and I can not believe it! Confidence is up and I am ready to showcase all of my hard work up until this point.
Seven weeks ago I stepped off stage unhappy about the way I looked and the way I felt. I was disappointed and down on myself. But not this go round.
I have been bustin’ my rump and going above and beyond to beat the me who was mentally and physically shook before she took the stage. I knew when I got off the stage in April that I could be better – mentally and physically. So, I set this goal for the 2018 NPC Victory Classic to get back up there in what I hoped would be my best condition to date.
I have been through a lot of things this year, but vowed to keep pushing on. The gym has been my sanctuary and I am grateful because it has helped build my confidence in ways I never thought it would grow this year.
Self confidence. You might think from my social media accounts that I have plenty of it. Well, not really. I have worked really hard to improve it over the years even though I have been doubting myself, picking at my physical flaws and letting my mind get the best of me. It’s definitely heightened during competition prep.
Sometimes when we feel low we seek validation, but the truth is no one can make you feel any better when your are repetitively telling yourself that you’re not good enough. You can have the most beautiful personality, ambitious nature and a body others work towards achieving, but that doesn’t mean that you are a ray of sunshine all the time.
Ups and downs are part of any process and trying to achieve something totally new is challenging. I will admit that some days I’ll feel lean and good enough. Other days I feel like I’ll never be ready to step on that stage. I try to not compare myself to others because I can only be me. It’s hard but I am working on loving the skin I am in.
Even with all that said, my confidence has grown and continues to grow. I am more confident than I have ever been.
Baby giraffe gone…sort of
I would tell people that I felt like a baby giraffe in my posing shoes. I don’t wear heels. I am a flip flop and sneakers kind of girl. Seriously! And you can tell when you watched me walk across the stage.
However, that is changing. I have been in these shoes so much this year that I feel I have come a long way. I am not Sasha Fierce. I will leave that to Beyonce, but the baby giraffe is back at the zoo with her mommy.
In addition to hiring my posing coach, who I see every few weeks, I slide into my heels several days a week after I am done with cardio. The studio is empty so that gives me plenty of time to walk and pose. I know that if I want to be competitive and improve my stage presence I need to be one with my shoes.
What tips do you have in building your confidence?