I am excited and anxious that I have completed my last workout before hitting the stage this weekend. I have bust my rump prepping for the 2017 NPC Stewart Fitness.
This might sound wild, but I love and hate training. I love it because it gives me energy and pushes my body to places I didn’t think it could go. But I also hate it because it pushes me to places I didn’t think I could go and I wonder why in the world am I doing this to myself. Self hatred? Love? What is it?
I know it sounds like Dr Jekyl and Mr Hyde. And at this point, just three days out, I sort of feel like that. It’s all good because I want this. I want this more than I thought that I ever could or would.
In addition to training my physique, I have been working my posing which at first caused such stage fright.
I worked with a posing coach this prep to help find the right poses and ease my overthinking. We have changed things up and I can’t believe how much of a difference it made. Now let’s just see if I can keep my fears under wraps and slow my posing down where it needs to be. Keep your fingers crossed for me.